Do you ever feel not-that-excited to study a word because you have
studied it so many times that you think you pretty much have the essence
of it, even it you are not living up to it? I kind of went into this
study feeling that way. I understood charity was the pure love of God,
that I need to pray for this gift, and that it feels really good when I
have it and that I needed to work on it more.
So I was surprised when I got so much out of this study this last weekend. I probably shouldn't have been because this happens any time I study a "basic" gospel principle, and I knew it would happen again, but I got a greater testimony that charity really changes EVERYTHING.
Today has been a wonderful day as I have focused on spending my time in the way God would have me spend it (righteousness) and I have felt his love wash over me. I try to do this most of the time, but there are certain pet habits that I don't do well on overcoming most days - it's like Meg Johnson said in her devotional "The most important commandment is the one you are struggling with right now." It is true.
I am astounded, though, that every time I make a sincere commitment to do better - Heavenly Father instantly blesses me with His love - His charity - and I wonder, "Wow, do you really believe me this time Heavenly Father? Because I've made this commitment many times before... but you must really believe me because I feel your confidence and love!" It is a beautiful thing to be clean and full of love. I am grateful for Heavenly Father's love and trust in me, regardless how many times I let him down. He still believes in me.
I am excited to keep working on this. Some things I have learned from my study: Charity covers a multitude of sins (I have no DESIRE to slip into my bad habits when I am filled with charity - what power!), charity is a gift bestowed when we are seeking to know and do God's will for us (our personal most important commandment at this time that we struggle with), and that charity never faileth- I can always count on it!
Awesome. Charity covers a multitudeof sins
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